Não é amor
Suki’s second summer in barcelona! Full of love!
Na minha boca, quero ter o gosto do seu corpo a cada segundo do meu dia. Isso não é amor, te prometo nunca te dizer te quiero, te prometo nunca derrubar minhas paredes. Mas em meu corpo, quero ter seu corpo, demasiado perto, costurado por dentro. Isto não é amor, te prometo.
"There are two reasons why people don’t talk about things; either it doesn’t mean anything to them, or it means everything"
Perfect and chaotic: sex
I had to get to 27 y.o. to finally understand and accept that I need sex in my life just like I need food, water, friends, dogs, books, clothes etc. Sex is just another thing that I particularly can’t live without. I heard a lot of people saying, and I even said it myself, that it’s a sign of maturity when you learn how to not sleep around so much. I still believe in it. But is not quite as black or white as it seems. Now, my belief is that It’s a sign of maturity when you learn with whom you should screw and how you should do it. One night stands are still healthy for every human being, though. The other day I read something about people who have one night stands in their lives are usually happier than the ones who haven’t had it. Of course, one night stands are not for everyone, if you can’t cope with the idea of not having cuddles and having to leave right after sex, you’ll probably be depressed and miserable afterwards. But if you are a bit more emotional evolved and free, you can get a lot of good feelings out of a good casual night with a stranger. At least, I can. The feeling of smiling during your walk of shame the next morning. That’s a good one. It also took me a change of country to appreciate myself as a sexual human being. I mean, sorry, dear europeans, but sex is not something that most of you really master. It must be something about the weather. Although I have found great partners here, practice makes perfect. And you should definitely practice more. Sex is a good and fun exercise! No wonder why you all kinda go crazy with women and men from the below ecuador line parts of the world. The only thing that makes it better and/or worse is feelings. I mean, having sex with someone you have some kind of feelings for can turn it into an amazing perfect experience, but it can also fuck everything up. What was great can become this huge wave of thoughts and feelings and headache. But in the other hand, doing it with feelings just makes your body enjoy the occasion much more, for once you have that taste of freedom and bliss in your mouth and nothing can replace it. But you know it will end, because all good things come to an end eventually. Or maybe I’m just a too pragmatic and hopeless human being. Well, in any case, people, just screw a bit more! We all deserve it and you might wake up to a better day after it! :)
"One day, whether you
you will stumble upon
someone who will start
a fire in you that cannot die.
However, the saddest,
most awful truth
you will ever come to find––
is they are not always
with whom we spend our lives."
"Don’t you find it odd," she continued, "that when you’re a kid, everyone, all the world, encourages you to follow your dreams. But when you’re older, somehow they act offended if you even try."
"People don’t talk to each other about real things because they’re afraid of how they’ll be judged. Or they think other people don’t have the capacity to carry the burden of what they have to say. They see the compulsion to put that burden out in the world as a show of weakness. But all that stuff is what makes us human; more than that, it’s what makes being human interesting and funny. How we got away from that, I don’t know. But fuck that: we’re built to deal with shit. We’re built to deal with death, disease, failure, struggle, heartbreak, problems. It’s what separates us from the animals and why we envy and love animals so much. We’re aware of it all and have to process it. The way we each handle being human is where all the good stories, jokes, art, wisdom, revelations and bullshit come from."